It doesn't rain...

On set today I was offered another job, which is brilliant in theory. Pretty much more of the same, but it's on a studio film (no idea what) which means more money, and a better chance of getting some solid contacts within the industry. Perfect, right?

Well, not quite. If I accept it, it means starting Sunday. As in this Sunday. Crap.

I am completely torn as to what to decide, especially since I have to give an answer before we wrap tomorrow. Penny, being the eternal voice of reason, suggested sleeping on it when I called her earlier. At that point my head was swimming, having just been asked. There are a million different reasons why I should say yes. I mean, it could do wonders for my future career.

But the more I think about it, the more reasons not to crop up. There's the obvious time issue, and this month has completely burnt me out, both physically and mentally. I'm not sure I can do that for another two months (at the very least.) I'd also have to take time out from my final year at Uni, something I'm not entirely comfortable with.

I'd also have to find somewhere to live, as I can't stay with Jess. That would be unfair on her, and I'd feel like I was taking the piss slightly. There's also the matter of the flat I've just put a deposit on. I can't leave Sam in the lurch like that, although I would have a month to find someone to take my place.

I'd also be leaving Penny in the shit at the student union. As if having a change of managers wasn't bad enough, she'd be the only supervisor there who knew what the hell she was doing. I can't do that to her.

Ugh, I think, in all honesty, I've made up my mind. But I can't help but think that if I turn this opportunity down, I'll be overlooked for any other jobs. The director has told me that he's going to need me again, and that he'll pass my name on, but I can't help but worry. Besides, I'd actually kick myself if it turned out to be Harry Potter.

In other news, wind machines are officially amazing. We filmed a big fight scene today, and it was set in a howling gale. The rushes look awesome already, so I'm very excited to see what it looks like when it's all put together. Really looking forward to the premiere.

I just don't know what to do.